i got it bad

it's 3:38 in the a.m. and i can't get her out of my head. eloquence left long ago. all that remains is her.

that's not a problem. it's the distance that i wanna do away with. ugh.

february can't come soon enough, that's all i know.

I'm tired...

...of a few different things, but I won't get into that now.

I'm tired of feeling unappreciated at work, ostracized with some far-out desk even though I used to design the entire section every night.

I'm tired of hearing no and getting the "good luck" pat on the back.

I'm fed up of feeling inadequate with this.

I need a vacation...I've got 47 hours available right now. I could use a week in Monterrey or Salt Lake or maybe somewhere I've never been. I just know that if I don't take some time off soon, I'm going to pop.

Al Gore: The Intrepid

Ever since he came out with An Inconvenient Truth, Albert Gore has been thought to be simply using that movie as a catapult back into the political ranks.

It's been talked about on reputable cable and network new channels (and even FOX News!) that he was going to do his little nationwide movie tour and then upstage the other Democrats as he laughed, joked and even danced his way to the party vote. Basically, they thought the only reason he did it was to remake himself into a kinder, friendlier, less robotic Al Gore.

But then a funny thing happened on his way to the election: he came out with a book.

Then he went on another tour, just to promote it, talking about the detrimental effects of the American lifestyle on the environment. He even got the Pope to admit that global warming is, indeed, a reality.

It's pretty hard to run for president when you're trying to save the world.

And today, he was rewarded for his efforts.

Again, the pundits are saying again that he'll use this to crash the Hillary vs. Obama vs. Edwards vs. A Bunch Of Other Guys Who Really Have No Realistic Shot But Are Fun To Listen To For A While Until They Run Out Of Money parade.

If you'd just won (a share of) the Nobel Peace Prize, would you then go put yourself through a grueling political campaign only to be torn down by the same people who used to support you?

Exactly.
I wouldn't either.

So, here's to hoping Mr. Gore makes the wise decision and stays out of the political arena. I don't think there's any coincidence he looks happier now than I ever remember seeing him while he was No. 2.

Cheers to happiness.
And cheers to you Al Gore.

correction

sorry, just realized they didn't have CDs back then.

it was off his album.
there we go.
much more accurate.

yippie kayayeyay...

so, turns out bruce willis has not only made a career of playing a rough-and-tumble cop who doesn't alway play by the rules. apparently, he's also a pretty marginal singer who had a CD made in the 80's. i don't understand how this is the first i've heard of this, but i thank late-night Soul Train reruns for enlightening me last night.

i give you...bruce willis the musician.

respect yourself
from the album the return of the bruno

i kid you not.
here's the proof:



you're welcome.

ugh

As I sit here, the taste of Cabernet on my tongue, the sound of Kanye West in my ears, Bill Clinton's Giving and my cell phone to my left and a rerun of Sex In The City to my right, I can't stay still. Well, mentally at least. There's so much going on and nothing that can really be done about it all.

At least I don't think, anyway.

It feels like it's all stuff I need to be patient about, but patience has never been a strongsuit of mine. I like things to get done now. Maybe even yesterday.

Another flaw, perhaps even bigger, if we're going to judge blemish intensity, is my absolute distaste for being wrong. Now, hear me right; I have no problem admitting I don't know something. But if I think I know and it turns out I was wrong...well that just doesn't sit well.

I guess that's why I'm all out of it and stuff. My two biggest flaws are being tested at the same time and it's all I can do to keep from just turning off my cell phone and taking a trip to Monterrey or something. Job status is still pending and I just have a hard time believing she wasn't the one...still...after more than two years. It's hard to imagine someone getting me better or making me laugh harder or make me forget about everything else going on in the world better than she does. I don't know...and that frustrates me.

I can't imagine a job better suited for what I bring to the table, but I probably won't even hear whether or not I'm even being considered for a few more weeks. My patience is waning.

Ugh.
Lord, give me the strength.

The Transition

Earlier tonight, I applied to a job that, should I be lucky enough to get, would change my life in a few different areas.

For all the confidence about the transition I've displayed recently, I'm not too proud to admit I'm feeling a little scared about it all. But I trust God. He is faithful.

That is all.
More later.